There are a lot of things we don’t understand until something becomes a catalyst to a new outlook. Thinking about my family today made me think…”they have been quite the catalyst.”
I never fully understood what it meant to be a “friend of Jesus”. I’ve always had friends, but it seems like being friends with Jesus should mean more. The kind of friendship that I knew consisted of eating, movies, and rockin out in a band (Shout to Broken). That was true until I meant my wife. My wife is my best friend and love of my life. She challenges me to be a better man, father, and follower of Christ. I miss her when I’m not with her. I can’t think of ANYone that I’d rather do EVERYthing with. Even the greatest joys seem lose their intensity when she’s not there. I couldn’t have asked for a better mother to my children. They are the ultimate priority for her. NOTHING will EVER change the passion in that woman for her children. Before you marry someone you think, “can I handle living with the same person until I die”. Now, I don’t want to imagine living life without her. That seems like a good way to be a “friend of Jesus”.
I never fully understood the love of God for us until I had children. The love that I felt when I first held Aubrey was unreal. Its the kind of love that causes you to do anything to make sure they are safe, secure, and have a bright future. The kind of love that helps you understand Gods correction. The kind of love that makes you love someone else above yourself. Its a kind of love that brings joy at every point of growth in her life. Aubrey set that kind of love in motion for me. Gods love is greater than anything I feel and that is amazing to me
I never fully understand why God allows certain things to happen. We have faith to know that He is a sovereign God that rules over all things, but I never fully understood. My newest daughter Avie seems to bring a whole new outlook on Gods sovereignty. I think about our babies that we were never able to meet. The babies we lost during pregnancy. Although I believe they are with God, its hard to understand why I never got to meet them here on earth. Its a heart breaking experience to lose a child before you get to meet them. However, looking at Avie seems to bring a new outlook. I cannot imagine what life would be like not having met her. For all the heart ache that has come, nothing compares to the joy of seeing that baby’s face light up when she hears my voice. No other joy compares to looking at her and seeing my wife and I in every facial feature. These are joys I would not have known if I was the sovereign one. She is a person I never would have met if I was the sovereign one. Instead I trust in a God that knows all.
Thank you Lord for your friendship, love, and sovereignty. And thank you for allowing me the pleasure to know the people in my life that have given me a new outlook